survey and shit like that

A
- Available: Only after 9.
- Age: 21.
- Annoyance: Rhetorical questions.
- Animal: Horse.
B
- Beer: Ehhh, if I really gotta go that route, Corona Extra w| lime or Bud Light.
- Birthday: Nov. 20th.
- Best Friends: Josh, Rob & Irma
- Body Part on opposite sex: PENIS <3
- Best feeling in the world: Orgasms.
- Blind or Deaf: =/ Neither.
- Best weather: 70 degrees, cloudy with a breeze.
- Been in Love: I am now.
- Been on stage?: Yes.
- Believe in Magic: No.
- Believe in God: Yes.
- Believe in Santa: LOL, of course…not.
C
- Candy: Jolly Ranchers.
- Color: Black, Orange & Green.
- Chocolate/Vanilla: Chocolate.
- Chinese/Mexican: Both ^_^
- Cake or pie: Cupcakes!
- Continent to visit: Europe of course. Oh, and Asia.
- Cheese: Is high in calories, but who cares?
D
- Day or Night: Night.
- Dance in the rain?: If my hair is curly.
- Do the splits?: –Cries-
E
- Eggs: –Gags-
- Eyes: Brownish green.
- Everyone’s got: Problems.
- Ever failed a class?: Yes.
F
- First thoughts waking up: “Same shit, different day.”
- Food: Asian|Thai.
G
- Greatest Fear:  Dying and leaving Taylor alone =/
- Goals: To become something one day, hopefully.
- Gum: Wrigley's spearmint gum.
- Get along with your parents?: We have our days.
- Good luck charm: I don’t believe in luck. Make your own magic.
H
- Hair Color: Black
- Happy: Is what I am when I’m with him.
- Holiday: Independence Day.
- How do you want to die: I don’t.
I
- Ice Cream: Cold Stone|Brusters
- Instrument: Piano
J
- Jewelry: Tiffany&Co.
- Job: County Employee.
K
- Kids: I love them!
- Kickboxing or karate: Kickboxing FTW.

-Keep a journal?: Kinda sorta, I guess.
L
- Longest Car Ride: 12 Hours.
- Love: Best feeling in the world, if its done right.
- Letter: Q
- Laughed so hard you cried: Yes, that’s when it’s the best.
M
- Milk flavour: 2%
- Movies: I LOVE MOVIES.
- Motion sickness: Sometimes, if I’m reading in the car.
N
- Number of Siblings:  3 biological brothers.
- Number of Piercings: 14!
- Number: 21 or 23
O
- One wish: World peace. =/
P
- Perfect Pizza: Beef, mushrooms, black olives and pineapples. <3
- Pepsi/Coke: Cherry Coke Zero
Q
- Quail: Hanh?
R
- Reason to cry: Next.
- Reality T.V.: Court TV|Real TV FTW.
- Radio Station: Pandora FTW.
- Roll your tongue in a circle?: Ask Josh ;)
- Ring size: IDK. I have fat hands. -Cries-
S
- Sushi: Mmmm, Yessss.
- Skipped school: Yes, tons of times.
- Slept outside: Mhm, camping FTW.
- Smoke?: Not anymore.
- Skinny dipped?: Yes.
- Shower daily?: Yes.
- Sing well?: Yes, its the passion.
- Sing in the Shower?: You know it, shaw!
- Swear?: Too much.
- Strawberries/Blueberries: BOTH! yomyomyom!
T
- Time for bed: Whenever I fall asleep on the phone.
- Thunderstorms: HATEEEE them.
U
- Unpredictable: Apparently thats all me.

V
- Vacation spot: South of the border, shawt.
W
- Weakness: IDK.
- Wanted to be a model?: No.
- Where do we go when we die?: =/ I want to be immortal.
- Worst Weather?: Tornados.
X
- X-Rays: Taken tons of em.
- Ex’s: Are pooof, gone!
Y
- Year it is now: 2009.
- Yellow: Polka dot bikini.
Z
- Zoo animal: Hip, Hip-Hop, Hip-Hop Anonymous [Hippopotamus]

Killaaaa™

why would you wanna break up

I’m in love with the most incredible man on Earth and out of all the women in the world, he chose me. Life doesn’t get any better than this.

Killaaaa™

mixtape of the day

I said it before & I’ll say it again: Mario is fucking great. Feel free to download here kids.

Killaaaa™

new fab video

Fabolous feat. Jermemih “It's My Time” & Fabolous feat. Ryan Leslie "Your Baby"

Anyway, listen at 2:22, that Ryan Leslie beat is sick!
I swear, that man is FUCKING AMAZING.
Ahh and Fab is the sexiest Dominican, ever. That’s all.

Killaaaa™

more music madness

Method Man & Redman—SNAP SHOT! Man, so everyone knows who these two niggas and if you don’t you’ve been seriously living under a rock or some shit. But yeah, you’ve seenheard these niggas from their album Blackout! from the movie How High, down to both their appearances on the MTV show “Cribs.”

What I’m really trying to get to is their new album Blackout! 2, which was released May 19th of this year. And might I add, it is one of the best albums that have come out this year. It’s my personal opinion, yeah I know. BUTTT unfortunately for you, my opinion does matter. Moving on. So yeah, I’m actually listening to it now, and they totally make a bitch happy. So, I advise everyone to take their broke asses out and cop that shit. NOT DOWNLOAD, but actually buy it. You know when you really like an album you actually buy the real thing? Well this is one of these moments kids. However, if you insist that I’m a fucking ass and I don’t know what I’m talking about music wise, which makes you an idiot by the way, you can preview the album before you purchase it. Feel free to click the link provided here : CLICK ME.

11. How Bout Dat 12. Dis Iz 4 All My Smokers 13. Lock Down [Skit] 14. Four Minutes to Lock Down 15. Never Herd Dis B 4 16. I Know Sumptn 17. A Lil Bit

1. BO2 [Intro] 2. I’m Dope Nigga 3. A-YO 4. Dangerous MCees 5. Errbody Scream 6. Hey Zulu 7. City Lights 8. Father’s Day 9. Mrs. International[Skit] 10. Mrs. International

Next topic. For those who haven’t noticed, Josh and I have the coolest blogs ever WITHOUT using photoshop or any of that high tech shit. We’re basically in competition as to who can make the coolest looking blogs or post…whatever you call each entry. FUCK YOU if you think we’re lame or nerds. –Shrugs- Honestly, we don’t care. But um, my vote is that my blog is way totally better than his. So, I’m winning. And yes I nominated myself. I’m sure he’s peeped my shit out and his jaws dropped. POW!

Speaking of Josh, we’re beefing now anyway. I just had to add the part about the blogs cause I like winning. =/ I’m not elaborating really. I’m pretty much done talking about my personal life here on these blogs. BUT I will update you, the readers, on a few things on whatever I feel like sharing.

That’s it for right now, hope you enjoyed the show. I’m gone.

Killaaaa™

j. holiday and some more shit

Man, there have been three main songs for the day. And I love all three of these songs.

1. J. Holiday “Make The Sound”
2. Teairra Mari ft. Pleasure P “Hunt For You”
3. R. Kelly ft. Plies “Playaz in Da Club”

You know what, the entire J. Holiday album Round Two is great as well as his first album Back of My Lac’.

Back of My Lac’ Ghetto Thug Commandmets Betcha Never Had Laa Laa Come Here Be With Me Suffocate Fatal Without You Pimp In Me Thank You Fallin’

Intro It’s Yours Fall Don’t Go Wrong Lover Run Into Your Arms Sing 2 U Lights Go Out Make that Sound Forever Ain’t Enough Fly Homeless I tried Magic Man (Bonus Track)

Right now, this very second as I font I’m listening to both of these albums. J. Holiday’s voice is amazing, and the music is something you can just sit back too. Although I prefer Back of My Lac’ over Round Two, I think they’re both great. I mean, the entire BOML album can ride all the way out. My five favorite tracks from Round Two: “It’s Yours” “ Sing 2 U” “Make that Sound” “Forever Ain’t Enough” and “Fly.”

Now, this R. Kelly and Plies song. I’ve never really been a big Plies fan, but IDK this song is kind of hot. More so, probably because of Kells. I mean, I love the lyrics. =/

The same thing goes for Teairra Mari and her song with Pleasure P. I’ve never been a fan of either one of them, and I’m still really not a fan of their music, but this song is cute. Like I said, it’s all for the lyrics. I’m a sucker for a nice love song and whatnot.

*Anyway, in other news Taylor and I had a good day today. We went to the pool and spend some quality MotherDaughter time together. I swear, she means to me more than any person in the world. <3 But then again, that’s how it’s supposed to be when you have children. Tomorrow we’re going to go to Stone Mountain Park and we’re gonna go up the mountain. Here are my pics from when I went up with Eden.

The one on the left is from when I was going up and the right is one of me sitting on the top of the mountain. Man, once you get to the top it’s the most beautiful view; you can see all of Atlanta. I told Josh that he’s going to do the mountain with me and he said okay. –Blushes hard- I totally forgot that he’s doesn’t like heights, but I know he’ll think it’s beautiful once he’s up at the top.

I’ll finish this later.

mario

Man oh man, I have no idea why I’m still awake. Instead of watching TV or some movie, I’m up listening to music doing some occasional texting here and there on my phone and some here and there conversation on Y! with one person.

But man, I’m in the best of moods right now. I was going through my CD case book thingy and shit, and I ran across Mario’s very first album, his self titled album Mario that came out in 2002. The whole album brings back some of those good memories from back in the day.

I haven’t listened to his second album ever, however. But man oh man, that Go album is the shit. I’m listening to that one now.

MY ALL TIME FAVORITE MARIO SONGS:

From The Mario Album	From The Go Album
2 Train What Your Name Is Holla Back Chick Wit Da Braids Never	Go Mario Crying Out for Me Skippin’ Music for Love Kryptonite Why Right and a Wrong Way

Mhm. Look at Mario all grown up now, yomyomyom.

Have you ever heard a song that you just had to put on repeat for like an hour+? Son, those are the best songs ever. It hasn’t happened to me in FOREVER, but today I was playing around on the PC and listening to random music. I ran across this artist or whatever, who Josh has given credit to in one of his previous posts and whatnot, and I have to say it was pretty dope. BUT as I was listening to both his mix tapes, Fall from Grace and Alive & Vibrate, I ran across this one track. It’s totally random, and probably doesn’t make any sense, but I’m in love with it. Anywayyyyy, if you’re interested in what I’ve been listening to for forty-five straight minutes, you may skip through the songs on my playlist and play the song “This Way” by Nero. Honestly, I’m not sure if it’s him or if he…IDK, it has his name on and I like it. The end.

Also, if you’re listening to my wonderful music player there are three other songs by two amazing bands:  Avenged Sevenfold and Killswitch Engage.

*Listen to them right now. Please and Thank you, sirs and ma’ams.

Anywho, I had an awesome weekend. I mean, it all started with Friday, which was the last day of school as well as my last day for work with the county for about 10 weeks. Hallelujah! Nah, but I’m loving the break so far. Saturday and Sunday was cool. I basically spend my entire weekend with Tay and Josh. “Just like the old days.” It was nice though, foreal. Monday was cool too. The family had a Memorial Day BBQ and whatnot, and of course I showed up hours late. –Curtseys- Unfortunately it rained, but hey, it was still a BBQ and as always it was nice to see the fam.

I’ve been talking to Irma a lot these past couple of days. I’m supposed to be going to visit her, but we sort of made plans to meet up in Chicago since we’re both trying to go in July. I promised my friend Jackie I’d visit her and since I have a free ticket to fly anywhere in the U.S. and I told her I’d use my ticket to see her. So, I’ll be seeing Jackie and Irma in July. POW!

Man, I just realized that I’d be totally lost without my phone. I mean, before it was whatever. Like I could’ve totally lost my phone and been okay, but recently I’ve been texting A LOT, and I’d seriously miss texting my pals. I basically text Josh, Irma and Rob twenty-four seven.

I’ve been thinking about making a new Y! account for messenger. I’m pretty much annoyed by most of the people on there. I tend to do that a lot though. Like, I’ve signed on to my pervious names, and I’d get a lot IM boxes like, “OMG, you’re online!” or “Where you been?” etc. you know. I just sometimes up and disappear on people. –Shrugs- I like to start fresh sometimes, yenno.

I honestly think I’m just going there this stage where I want a new everything. Everything except a new boyfriend and new Trio.

Well, Josh is bugging me to post this blog so he can read it. He’s going to be so disappointed when he reads it. LOL, a bunch of nothingness is all it really is.

XOXO.

Meow!

Peep the hand gesture. Mmm, if you aint down to make the kitty purr aint no bitch gonna be checkin for you foreal. –Shrugs- I just thought I’d share that.

Good day.

Nas and more shit

Man, basically I think I sort of feel in love with Washington, D.C. foreal. Seriously. That city is freaking beautiful though, and there are soooooooooo many museums there and memorials, all of which I love. Today I was looking at these pictures I took when I went in 8th grade. =/ Eh, I know that shit was a long time ago, but I remember it though. It was pretty dope, and the mall strip thingy was theeeee shit. So yeah, I need to go back again and do all that shit all over again. I'm thinking, a 1 week trip. Yes Lord.

Anyway, I'm kicking back listening to Nas, my favorite MC. If you haven't already, take a look at Josh's blog and shit. Nas as well as some other AMAZING MCs are having this concert in D.C. which will be, hands down be probably one of the most amazing concerts ever. Anyone who lives in VA or that other state D.C. is close to [ I don’t remember the name of it because it’s probably lame or some shit] should definitely fucking go. I mean, I don’t care if you go broke from buying tickets to go, you better go. –Takes a peep at Josh’s blog- Ah, yes. The concert is called Rock the Bells. You should fucking go. Orrrrrr if you can’t make it, you should at least buy me a ticket to go andddd a plane ticket to D.C. and shit. Don’t worry, I can take care of my food and hotel expenses.

Anyway, everyone of you who are reading this blog should go out and download and|or listen to every single one of Nas’ albums.

Anyway, BRB Josh and I are shopping for “goodies” =]

Just two minutes ago, I mailed a secret to Post Secret. Now I'll wait to see if it will ever be posted here online, and if it is, I pray that no one knows which secret is mine.

Anyway, look at my baby.

Man, I live for these moments.

kiss my ass

So, I heard that I’m lying about being sick or what not.

Take a look at that assholes [click to enlarge photo].
Whoever said I was lying, I hope you rot in hell.
<3

Dear Diary,

I woke up this morning happier than I’ve been in a long time. Its totally unlike me to wake up happy or be happy on my own without relying on someone else to make me happy or give me that happiness boost.

Anyway, I woke up around 6 ish this morning and decided to go for a morning jog for about 30 or 45 minutes. The air was thick and full of water, which made me sweat but overall it was a nice jog. Of course, being that I live in Downtown Decatur, I saw a lot of other people jogging with their dogs and others in small groups.

Last night Taylor and I met my mom at Los Bravos, it’s a Mexican restaurant. It was really nice, the Mariachi band was there and Taylor really enjoyed herself.  My mom and I ordered Margaritas, which were amazing. She had a strawberry Margarita and I got a Lime Margarita. I think hers was better than mine fruit wise, but mine had a better Tequila “zing” to it. There is really nothing like Tequila, lime and salt. <3

Back to what I was saying, I must be having some sort of breakthrough in my life. I mean, I’m totally carefree about anything negative. All I want is to be happy, and I’m happy.

I had actually had a really nice conversation with Irma yesterday afternoon about life in general. She told me some things that I took  to heart, that make complete and total sense. There is no point in being angry, there is no point in harvesting anger or negative thoughts or feelings. If something bad happens, all you can do is fix the situation at hand and move forward from it. If things don’t go my way, or according to what I want, that’s okay.

Speaking of which, my very dear friends have really come through for me when I’ve needed them these past three days or so. Even friends that I don’t even talk to that often.

I talked to Jay the other morning. He sounded so happy, like so happy. Hearing him so happy actually made me feel really good. Him and his baby are doing well, and he tells me that he’s completely stress free. I thought to myself, “It must be nice.” and told him that I was happy for him.

Rob of course is always there for me. He does that smallest things that make me really appreciate him as a friend, like just a simple text to ask me if I need anything; simply just checking on me.

Then I thought, I’m surrounded by a lot of meaningful people that actually care about me, which must mean that I’m a good person, right? It must mean something if someone cares to check on me or ask me how I’m doing randomly out of the blue.

Besides my friends and all that good stuff, Josh told the best thing I could’ve heard all week. Like, have you ever had someone tell you something that made you completely speechless? That’s pretty much what happened to me.

Well, that’s it for now. I’m going to watch Spiderman 3 with Taylor. I hope everyone has a wonderful Saturday morning and rest of the day.

throwbackkkk

man we've come a long ways now. it seems just yesterday she was my little baby.

Y!

southern.hustle: i'm TRYING to arrange a trip down there

cloud.kapri: you should!

southern.hustle: i wanna

southern.hustle: take you to mcdonalds

southern.hustle: let you buy anything you want off the dollar menu just that one time

southern.hustle: next time you only can get what i tell ya you can have

cloud.kapri: :">

cloud.kapri: I like a man in charge

southern.hustle: lol, you shoulda blogged that

LMAO, that my nigga man.

Happy Mother's Day and shit like that. shout outs to Dante being the first to tell me; I woke up to a text. -smiles-

to all the females reading my blog, it is a MUST that you go out and read Skinny Bitch. that book was absolutely amazing. I want to be a skinny bitch, so it is my new bible. don't get it twisted, I said skinny bitch NOT scrawny bitch. so yeah, go read it. 

oh, I am now a converted vegan. meaning, no meat or dairy products. I don't eat anything with sugar, unless it's natural sugars. I don't eat anything or use fake sugars suck as Equal, Sweet and Low, Splenda. just so you know, those shitty sugars are ass for you and cancerous. they're not even good for people like me who are diabetic.

I've been talking to Dante a lot lately. I miss my nigga man. talking to him made me realize how much I miss hanging and talking to a real nigga. we always talk about real nigga shit. nigga told me when I'm ready to smoke strong holla at him. haha, I miss gettin high with my nigga. but yeah.

besides Dante, me and Rob been talking a lot too though. he's been keeping me strong and being the bestest BFF and shit like that. he's one of the main reasons I keep my head up. anyway, I found out that we have the same nickname last night. BOOBIE! he has a "B" tatted under his eye and a tear drop on the other side. I'm gettin it to! lemme show you.

it's not the best picture of the tats but, I'll have him send me another one. that shit still go hard as hell though. when I get that shit, I'm gonna be so thugged out, nawmsayin.

so I woke up yesterday at 7 am to cut the lawn, but the grass was too wet and the lawn mower choked out. shit was crazy. so I had to wait and while I was waiting, I went and got some gas for the lawn mower, cause we aint have none. then I had to go to Ace Hardware to get replacement fuses for the air condtioning and get some filers to replace the filters. after gettin all of that, I go to mow the lawn and what not. I get the back yard done, which killed me if I may mention. when I go to mow the front yard the lawn mower cut off. WTF! it's hard enough to fucking pull that string thingy to start it. so I find out after checking the mower again that it needs oil. so, I leave out AGAIN and get some oil and a PowerADE cause the fucking sun beating down on me. while mowing the front yard, I feel something snap on my back like a rubber band. =/ it's my fucking muscle in my back. but yeah, I finish mowing the law, replace the fuses, and change the air filters. oh yeah man, I had to drag like a 12 or 13 foot branch from one end of the yard to the other side. a bitch feel strong and shit like that. I think I'm pretty much the truth now. I aint doin that shit again though. and that's real. ask me how my body feels. like pure shit, like I was trying out for the Med-RX strong man competition and shit.

but yeah.

man, the way some of these niggas be moving be hella trife. I aint gonna elaborate, but I'm just watching niggas real close and shit.

man, I need to go out though and release one time. only thing is, I usually end up driving. :thumbsdown:, I wanna get fucked up. I can't even drink like I wanna drink being the driver. I dare not even drink at all. when I drink alcohol I lose all control of how many drinks I have. I've been doing good though. bitch been sober for a long time, but I feel, IDK. I just wanna drink and hit the dance floor one time. but you know what, I wanna go to a reggae club or a techno club to be foreal. I think if I go to a techno club I'll loose complete and total control. -smiles-

"we were speaking but not communicating." that's how things were with Josh and I for the past week and whatnot. we actually started communicating and talked about a lot of stuff that needed to be said. so we good now. he tried to make me look at Rihanna's naked pictures. I mean, to be honest I wasn't that interested. Reese had already shown me one of em, and they all soft pornish. BLAH. he has previously tricked me into seeing Cassie's boney ass. to be honest, all the hype about these nudes is fucking whack. I've seen strippers that look 10x better and shit. show me Nicki Manaj's nudes and make me dick stand up and jump. I don't wanna see no boney hos. feel me? show me a long haired, THICK red bone. -licks lips-  and Josh, for the record, the pic of them Panamanian hos was totally photoshopped. you so lame. how three bitches gonna have the SAME EXACT body? I don't know if you know, but photoshop is amazing.  you can practically do anything on that bitch. like, put a grill in your mouth and make body parts smaller and|or bigger. too bad it wasn't real though, cause I'd wanna see their nudes and pull out the lotion for my dick. jizz all on the computer screen. -smiles-

that's all for now.

if you bout money fuck with me

I made dinner last night. BBQ chicken, corn on the cob, blah blah. Tay was all happy though. "I like when you cook Mommy, it's good." I swear she's my heart.  I don't need no one else. She ate all her food too man. what can I say, I gets downnnn.

but yeah.

I had a endocrine appointment today at 10:30. I was late of course. me and my doctor went over my blood work from last week. I aint even gonna lie though shawty, I'm kinda worried.  I told my doctor about my eyes. I gotta make an optical appointment next week to get my retinas|dilated eye exam checked and what not. I aint elaborating, cause yeah. the end.

my, uh, cardiologist appointment is next week. I hate going to the doctor. I hope he tells me something good though. I've been having chest pain and shit like that. I aint trippin, it aint nothing sleep can't fix.

I've been thinking about taking my piercings out though. I already took my earrings out my cartilage and shit.

I need a hair cut.

oh yeah, I woke up late as shit for work again. a bitch woke up at 6:35 and what not, and I'm supposed to be clocking in at 6:45. fuck work man, I got like 14 days left and what not.

that's it, I'm gone. -middle fingers up-

its not that I'm an asshole I just live behind the tint, I don't see you

man, its still raining and shit, mother fuck you mother nature. anyway, I woke up late as shit, 6:20 to be exact. yay...no. worst sleep of my life and whatnot. shout outs to Baby waking up late; exactly an hour after me. <3 

anyway, it was raining and shit when I was getting out the car and shit. so I'm running inside the building. of course I  slipped fell and shit in the biggest water pool puddle. now I'm sitting here in some sweats from the school itchy as shit. and if you're laughing fuck you fuck you fuck you FUCK YOU. I shouldn't have been acting as though I was going to melt. -cries-

 

last night on CS was the truth. HA, no pun intended. insecurity must be a mother tho. I aint trippin. I guess someone tried to tell me off or whatnot. uh, don't try go hard on me and ask me if I'm mad. I don't ever get mad. fuck that shit, I don't curr. nawsayin? yuh. 

days since I've talked to my Dad: 5 

anyway, shout outs to Rob for being the bestest BFF and the funniest nigga alive. whenever I'm down or in a bad mood that nigga always makes me laugh. 

shouts to Irma, my main. we in this for life, she knows all my secrets and all that good stuff. LOL, she's the most ghetto thuggish Bosnian I ever met. 

*trio for life <3

man mother fuck, my wisdom teeth are killing me. I feel like a baby with a teething ring the way I be nawing and drooling on shit. and if you're laughing, -middle finger- son, I need to make this dental appointment aso they can yank these hos out, foreal. 

my Mom wants me to cut her lawn Saturday. I suppose I can do that. I'm wakin up early tho to do that shit. shit is gonna take mad long and I don't wanna do it when its hot out so I can die. oh yeah, Mother's Day is this weekend. blah. I hope we have dinner at Lauren's house and Ms. Margret makes them yams. yomyomyom.

anyway, I better have a good rest of the day or I'll shoot this fucking building up cause I'ma mutha'fuckin thug! always strapped fool, super soaker on deck. water guns are the shit. ahhh, I can't wait til summer. endless BBQs and water fights.

LOL, lemme tell you bruh. I rode all the way home with my left middle up the whole way. so if people was lookin, they got a fuck you. you shouldn't have been lookin. -shrugs-

I'm out tho.

I deleted this.

a few pics from Braylon's party

that's Tay in the O'Neal jersey.

cake, yom yom.

Deanna & Taylor

look at the birthday boy <3

I'm so happy today for some unknown reason. I just feel totally on top of the world. It must be my new music playlist. all of those songs remind me of the happiest moments of my life. nothing gets any better than this.

1. The Goo Goo Dolls "Iris"
2. Santana "Smooth"
3. Sheryl Crow "Favorite Mistake"
4. No Doubt "Don't Speak"
5. Matchbox Twenty "3 AM"
6. Third Eye Blind "Semi-Charmed Life"
7. Third Eye Blind "Jumper"
8. Third Eye Blind "Tell Me How It's Gonna Be"
9. Natalie Imbruglia "Torn"
10. Lenny Kravits "Fly Away"
11. Marcy Playground "Sex and Candy"
12. Bust "Glycerine"
13. Eagle-Eye Cherry "Save Tonight"
14. Creed "Higher"
15. Semisonic "Closing Time"

yesterday was my little cousin's birthday, he just turned one. it was the cutest thing ever, I swear. my cousin wanted everyone to wear a sports jersey, and everyone had one. Braylon had on an entire Jordan outfit and got his first hair cut. he was as cute as button. I didn't wear anything that I had planned to wear, instead I went out and got two new jerseys for me and Taylor. I bought a Hawk's jersey and I got her a Pacer's jersey. we all had BBQ, which I have been craving for the longest. omg, you have no idea. I think I was the only nigga excited about the food, lol.

Breanna told me next weekend she wants to go out with me again, since her and Deanna will be officially in Atlanta for summer break from school. I told her that's cool. I really miss my cousins and shit even though we tend to get together and fight. lol, I still love them the very same. I really missed Lauren though, cause she hardly came home at all. but she's here now, and man she's the funniest person, I swear. me and Natalie will be out the very same day for summer break, being as we both are on the same school calendar. she's so quiet, but will laugh at just about anything I say.

besides that, Saturday night turned to shit. actually my entire weekend, minus the party, was shitty. seeing everything and people's true colors can really, i don't know. there is no one that I can talk to about anything anymore. It sucks majorly, but it isn't something that I can't get over. everything always works itself out with or without anyone.

there has only been one person that I've relied on in my entire life. he's the only person that I've ever asked anything from, he's the very man that I thought loved me more than any other man, ever. my Dad. he hurt my feelings more than anyone could've ever hurt my feelings. more than my Mom was able to hurt my feelings.

now, nothing else matters anymore.