southern.hustle: i'ma thug
cloud.kapri: yeen no thug
southern.hustle: i'll pull yo titty out in public
southern.hustle: to show you how thug i'm is
cloud.kapri: LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
cloud.kapri: go away
southern.hustle: my nigga walk around tellin everybody that
southern.hustle: "i'ma motha fuckin thug!"
cloud.kapri: ROFL
cloud.kapri: I yelled that one time in a parking lot
cloud.kapri: I'm so dead right now
southern.hustle: then he'll look at the cameras in school
southern.hustle: and be like "whoever watchin this, i'ma fuckin thug"
DEATHHHHHHHH!
see Josh, I'm not the only one who yells that kinda shit.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
I miss Mimi
Dear Mimi,
where are you?
yahoo just isn't yahoo without our morning conversations.
where are you?
yahoo just isn't yahoo without our morning conversations.
come back to me! -cries-
xoxo, Ashlee
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
the 29th
today was cool. Missy and I met up for lunch and shared some laughs. we made friends with one of the fellow waiters. dude was extra gay and super funny. he had us rolling. after eating our salads and drinking our water with lemon [peep the diet food], I went with Missy to look at these town homes. omg, they were amazing. after seeing the 1800 square foot model, she decided that's where she wants to be. I love to see my homies doin well for themselves and making these moves. that's whats up, foreal.
*side note: I know this guy selling Six Flags Season Passes for $20 a pop and this one chick that has $500 Wal Mart gift cards for $250. I'm hopping on both deals, nawmsayin.
anyway, so its basically summer-time weather here in Atlanta so you know niggas is acting a fool. I swear, the heat makes people act insane; butt naked bitches and niggas that can't seem to keep their hands off you. pure ugh.
so yeah, after lunch this Yardie pulls up to at the red traffic light. I dunno why everyone does it, but like when you stop at a red light its like you have to look over and see who's next to you. so yeah, that's what basically happened. lemme tell you, he rolls his window down and nods. so I smile and say, "hey, how you doin?" trying to polite yenno. he's all like, "you got a beautiful smile...somethin somethin, where you goin?" I tell him I'm on my way back to work and by the time Missy rolls up next to him all, "NUH UH! SHE GOTTA MAN!" funniest shit ever.
man, one of my students decided to get pissy with me today. he doesn't like me right now for whatever reason, honestly I don't care. anyway one of the students that just returned to school from jail gave me a compliment. this pissy nigga says, "its not cute, she looks like shit." I let out one of Josh's karate man laughs him and said, "no one asked you for your opinion. sit down and shut up." he said, "shut up talking to me bitch...mother fucker." when I tell you I let out he biggest LOL in his face, boy I aint lying. he was pissed and was mumbling under his breath. I told him, "I know you're really mad, huh? and even madder that I don't give a shit about what you said or that your mad. so that makes you mad, mad, mad." I let out another huge laugh, and walked away. I think Dino hates me foreal foreal now. -smiles-
I almost forgot.
I also went to GodFather Customs today and applied for a part time there for the summer. the manager told me he'd more than likely hire me. BIM! it seems like a cool place to work, although I don't know what I'd be doing there LOL. we'll see though. I just wanna look cool in there and drive a company car.
holla at a bad bitch when you see one.
*side note: I know this guy selling Six Flags Season Passes for $20 a pop and this one chick that has $500 Wal Mart gift cards for $250. I'm hopping on both deals, nawmsayin.
anyway, so its basically summer-time weather here in Atlanta so you know niggas is acting a fool. I swear, the heat makes people act insane; butt naked bitches and niggas that can't seem to keep their hands off you. pure ugh.
so yeah, after lunch this Yardie pulls up to at the red traffic light. I dunno why everyone does it, but like when you stop at a red light its like you have to look over and see who's next to you. so yeah, that's what basically happened. lemme tell you, he rolls his window down and nods. so I smile and say, "hey, how you doin?" trying to polite yenno. he's all like, "you got a beautiful smile...somethin somethin, where you goin?" I tell him I'm on my way back to work and by the time Missy rolls up next to him all, "NUH UH! SHE GOTTA MAN!" funniest shit ever.
man, one of my students decided to get pissy with me today. he doesn't like me right now for whatever reason, honestly I don't care. anyway one of the students that just returned to school from jail gave me a compliment. this pissy nigga says, "its not cute, she looks like shit." I let out one of Josh's karate man laughs him and said, "no one asked you for your opinion. sit down and shut up." he said, "shut up talking to me bitch...mother fucker." when I tell you I let out he biggest LOL in his face, boy I aint lying. he was pissed and was mumbling under his breath. I told him, "I know you're really mad, huh? and even madder that I don't give a shit about what you said or that your mad. so that makes you mad, mad, mad." I let out another huge laugh, and walked away. I think Dino hates me foreal foreal now. -smiles-
I almost forgot.
I also went to GodFather Customs today and applied for a part time there for the summer. the manager told me he'd more than likely hire me. BIM! it seems like a cool place to work, although I don't know what I'd be doing there LOL. we'll see though. I just wanna look cool in there and drive a company car.
holla at a bad bitch when you see one.
gravity
this post is about loyalties, I guess. I know a lot of us are always trying to prove our loyalty to one another, especially friends. we'll go as far as putting our life on the line, putting ourselves in life or death situations, or just willing and ready to take a bullet for them. and for what? to say we're loyal to them?
not this nigga.
let me start by saying I don't have not one friend that I'm willingly to take a bullet for, let alone put my life on the line for. why? because to be honest, none of my friends would honestly take a bullet for me. I'm not willingly to play hero or take responsibility or anyones mistakes.
gun play is definitely a no for me.
some of you may think I aint no real nigga for not having my friends' backs or what not, but I'm real enough about mine to let them know I aint getting bullet wounds for them.
the way I see it is, I have my own life and my own responsibilities to be worried about whatever beef anyone has with someone, period. if my friend wants to run out and do some hot shit, guess what? its not my responsibility to get them out of it. we're all grown, and should handle our own.
I don't mean to come off fucked up, but it is what it is. like I said, I can't play hero, but if we were in a drive by situation, I'd make sure we both duck or some shit. I'm sayin, I aint gonna sit there and watch my friend die. that's bullshit.
shit, I know you "supposed" to "ride for your niggas" and "die for your niggas." if that's the case, my niggas are those my family. the end. I'd ride, die, get shot, and kill a nigga for anyone in my family. and of course I'd squeeze the burner off for Josh. that's about it though.
I'm just saying. in all honesty though, which one of yall would put your life on the line for me? -waits- please, don't all answer at once.
that's what I thought.
not this nigga.
let me start by saying I don't have not one friend that I'm willingly to take a bullet for, let alone put my life on the line for. why? because to be honest, none of my friends would honestly take a bullet for me. I'm not willingly to play hero or take responsibility or anyones mistakes.
gun play is definitely a no for me.
some of you may think I aint no real nigga for not having my friends' backs or what not, but I'm real enough about mine to let them know I aint getting bullet wounds for them.
the way I see it is, I have my own life and my own responsibilities to be worried about whatever beef anyone has with someone, period. if my friend wants to run out and do some hot shit, guess what? its not my responsibility to get them out of it. we're all grown, and should handle our own.
I don't mean to come off fucked up, but it is what it is. like I said, I can't play hero, but if we were in a drive by situation, I'd make sure we both duck or some shit. I'm sayin, I aint gonna sit there and watch my friend die. that's bullshit.
shit, I know you "supposed" to "ride for your niggas" and "die for your niggas." if that's the case, my niggas are those my family. the end. I'd ride, die, get shot, and kill a nigga for anyone in my family. and of course I'd squeeze the burner off for Josh. that's about it though.
I'm just saying. in all honesty though, which one of yall would put your life on the line for me? -waits- please, don't all answer at once.
that's what I thought.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
sabado, domingo y lunes
so I'm laid out across the bed watching NCIS. a lot is actually on my mind. I didn't realize how much I have to do in such little time, its freaking crazy. its nothing I can't handle though.
yesterday. boy oh boy yesterday seemed like one of the longest days of my life, I swear. I had to handle some business and come out the pocket about $300 for some bullshit. not to mention wait nearly 3 and a half hours to get the shit taken care of. I guess I shouldn't really complain because it could've been a lot worse. it was still some bullshit though.
man, I'm really blogging because Josh wants me to. -smiles- I'd do just about anything he'd ask me to do. call it what you want, but he's totally worth it.
count down til Josh's visit : 3 months and 10 days
that's August 7th by the way. since I'm sure a lot of people wanna know, there you go. I'm totally pumped. its like, real life shit now. like foreal.
FUCK, I don't even know where to start with this blog. lemme see, I guess I'll start with the weekend.
man, my weekend was pretty nice. I chilled on Saturday really, just kicked it with Tay and Baby all day. Josh and I had a wonderful day. oh yeah, my little cousin went to prom and shit. much to my dismay, I had to "see her off." whatever that means. I mean, it was nice though. she really likes me and thinks of me as her sister, since we both don't have one, so yeah. she looked stunning, I was proud.
ahhh, yes. I went to look at this place Saturday too. I had another place in mind to stay, but apprently my Dad doesn't think it's safe anymore and neither does my mom, so I had to pick somewhere else. I mean, I totally understand where they're coming from. I respect their opinions on it, and know they're only meaning to look out for me and Taylor. so yeah, I went to this place Saturday around 12:30 pm and totally feel in love with it. I mean, I put the deposit down and everything. July 1st is my move in date, HOLLA! so it's official, official. <3
*Blogger deleted what i wrote here about Sunday, WTF >=[
anyway, I didn't spend my usual 20 hours [exaggeration] talking to Josh, but we still talked a lot and spent lots of quality time together. man, we had kinda got into over some doo-doo that we both didn't like. IDK, it was cool though. we always get back, and always end up better than ever. I know he's not going anywhere, and he damn sure knows I'm not either. that's the best thing about our relationship. like, we've never really ever fought, but even when we have minor disagreements where it could spiral out of control [which could happen a lot of the time], we won't even allow each it to get that far. one of us, usually him though, will always apologize and we'll say I love you like 50 times, and everything is everything. LOL, strangely as it sounds. IDK, whatever. I love him though, that's for sure.
well, I guess that's it. I kinda ran out of shit to say.
chao!
yesterday. boy oh boy yesterday seemed like one of the longest days of my life, I swear. I had to handle some business and come out the pocket about $300 for some bullshit. not to mention wait nearly 3 and a half hours to get the shit taken care of. I guess I shouldn't really complain because it could've been a lot worse. it was still some bullshit though.
man, I'm really blogging because Josh wants me to. -smiles- I'd do just about anything he'd ask me to do. call it what you want, but he's totally worth it.
count down til Josh's visit : 3 months and 10 days
that's August 7th by the way. since I'm sure a lot of people wanna know, there you go. I'm totally pumped. its like, real life shit now. like foreal.
FUCK, I don't even know where to start with this blog. lemme see, I guess I'll start with the weekend.
man, my weekend was pretty nice. I chilled on Saturday really, just kicked it with Tay and Baby all day. Josh and I had a wonderful day. oh yeah, my little cousin went to prom and shit. much to my dismay, I had to "see her off." whatever that means. I mean, it was nice though. she really likes me and thinks of me as her sister, since we both don't have one, so yeah. she looked stunning, I was proud.
ahhh, yes. I went to look at this place Saturday too. I had another place in mind to stay, but apprently my Dad doesn't think it's safe anymore and neither does my mom, so I had to pick somewhere else. I mean, I totally understand where they're coming from. I respect their opinions on it, and know they're only meaning to look out for me and Taylor. so yeah, I went to this place Saturday around 12:30 pm and totally feel in love with it. I mean, I put the deposit down and everything. July 1st is my move in date, HOLLA! so it's official, official. <3
*Blogger deleted what i wrote here about Sunday, WTF >=[
anyway, I didn't spend my usual 20 hours [exaggeration] talking to Josh, but we still talked a lot and spent lots of quality time together. man, we had kinda got into over some doo-doo that we both didn't like. IDK, it was cool though. we always get back, and always end up better than ever. I know he's not going anywhere, and he damn sure knows I'm not either. that's the best thing about our relationship. like, we've never really ever fought, but even when we have minor disagreements where it could spiral out of control [which could happen a lot of the time], we won't even allow each it to get that far. one of us, usually him though, will always apologize and we'll say I love you like 50 times, and everything is everything. LOL, strangely as it sounds. IDK, whatever. I love him though, that's for sure.
well, I guess that's it. I kinda ran out of shit to say.
chao!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Josh ♥
well well well, we meet again.
i'm sure most of you know that Josh made a blog about me. don't lie and say you didn't, cause yall comment his stuff. so, i'm basically going to hit yall again with more mush. and being as i'm the female version of my baby, it's going to be all lovey dovey. yeah, and all that jazz.
but yeah. man, to be honest i don't even really know where to start. i'll start by saying that i love him in every way that a woman can love a man. the past 5 months that i've known him have been the most amazing 5 months with anyone. probably even the most amazing 5 months of my life.
and it's crazy really. i mean, i've probably said this a million times and in tons and tons of different ways, but it's like we're perfect for one another. oddly, strangely, and utterly perfect for one another. it's like, have you ever connected with someone truly on every level possible? i've never done that til now. LOL, i feel like one of those people in the Match.com or eHarmony commercials or some shit. as corny as that sounds, that's exactly what it's like. it's like we're the same person. a lot of people are always like, "i want someone who is just like me, who i can be myself around." man, i've found that person. everything i've ever wanted in a man, in a relationship, everything i've dreamed about, i find inside him.
i don't think i've never been in love in til now. like honestly. i talked to my mom recently about what it is to be in love with someone. she told me, "when you're in love with someone, when you really love them, you'll love them forever. love isn't something where if you fight with your boyfriend, it'll all go away. if you really love that person, you can forgive them for anything. when you love someone they stick with you in your heart forever." hypothetically speaking, i don't think i could ever let Josh go. actually i know i could never let him go. i'd never hold anything against him, and whatever obstacles we'll ever cross i know we can get through them together. and i say "hypothetically speaking" because we've never fought about anything.
speaking of which, i can always count on Josh for any and everything. we've been through so much together; it seems like we've gone to the end of the earth and back. but man, just like real niggas we get through shit together. when i'm sad, he seems to be the only one that can make me feel better and calm my rage.
now that i think about it, not only do i love him, but i need him.
i've never really needed anyone for anything, but he's different. he's the love of my life. and since he's been apart of my life, i can not be without him. i can't imagine not waking up in the morning at 5 am calling him just to fall asleep again lol. i can't imagine not sleeping with him on the phone at night. i can't imagine not texting him and spending my entire day with him. i've never wanted to spend all my time with someone, the way i want to spend all my time with him.
which ultimately leads to this. AUGUSTTTTTTTTTTT! when i see him son, i'm gonna run, jump, and kiss all over him forever and ever and ever. amen. LOL, seriously though.
i've made some pretty steep plans with this man. like stuff people who are in relationships for some years do. a lot of people think we're crazy for "moving too fast" or whatever, but you only have one life. i know who i want to spend the rest of my life with. i know who makes me uncontrollably happy. i know i may not know everything there is to know about the world, but i know that with Josh i am the happiest i'll ever be.
just in case yall think this is a story book fairy tale, lemme show you a lil something.
i'm sure most of you know that Josh made a blog about me. don't lie and say you didn't, cause yall comment his stuff. so, i'm basically going to hit yall again with more mush. and being as i'm the female version of my baby, it's going to be all lovey dovey. yeah, and all that jazz.
but yeah. man, to be honest i don't even really know where to start. i'll start by saying that i love him in every way that a woman can love a man. the past 5 months that i've known him have been the most amazing 5 months with anyone. probably even the most amazing 5 months of my life.
and it's crazy really. i mean, i've probably said this a million times and in tons and tons of different ways, but it's like we're perfect for one another. oddly, strangely, and utterly perfect for one another. it's like, have you ever connected with someone truly on every level possible? i've never done that til now. LOL, i feel like one of those people in the Match.com or eHarmony commercials or some shit. as corny as that sounds, that's exactly what it's like. it's like we're the same person. a lot of people are always like, "i want someone who is just like me, who i can be myself around." man, i've found that person. everything i've ever wanted in a man, in a relationship, everything i've dreamed about, i find inside him.
i don't think i've never been in love in til now. like honestly. i talked to my mom recently about what it is to be in love with someone. she told me, "when you're in love with someone, when you really love them, you'll love them forever. love isn't something where if you fight with your boyfriend, it'll all go away. if you really love that person, you can forgive them for anything. when you love someone they stick with you in your heart forever." hypothetically speaking, i don't think i could ever let Josh go. actually i know i could never let him go. i'd never hold anything against him, and whatever obstacles we'll ever cross i know we can get through them together. and i say "hypothetically speaking" because we've never fought about anything.
speaking of which, i can always count on Josh for any and everything. we've been through so much together; it seems like we've gone to the end of the earth and back. but man, just like real niggas we get through shit together. when i'm sad, he seems to be the only one that can make me feel better and calm my rage.
now that i think about it, not only do i love him, but i need him.
i've never really needed anyone for anything, but he's different. he's the love of my life. and since he's been apart of my life, i can not be without him. i can't imagine not waking up in the morning at 5 am calling him just to fall asleep again lol. i can't imagine not sleeping with him on the phone at night. i can't imagine not texting him and spending my entire day with him. i've never wanted to spend all my time with someone, the way i want to spend all my time with him.
which ultimately leads to this. AUGUSTTTTTTTTTTT! when i see him son, i'm gonna run, jump, and kiss all over him forever and ever and ever. amen. LOL, seriously though.
i've made some pretty steep plans with this man. like stuff people who are in relationships for some years do. a lot of people think we're crazy for "moving too fast" or whatever, but you only have one life. i know who i want to spend the rest of my life with. i know who makes me uncontrollably happy. i know i may not know everything there is to know about the world, but i know that with Josh i am the happiest i'll ever be.
just in case yall think this is a story book fairy tale, lemme show you a lil something.
*i treat him like a KING.
but yeah, i'm out though. baby has been patiently waiting for me and this. i love you Josh, more than anything in the entire world. i'm so glad that i'm the one you call your woman. being with you makes me the happiest woman on earth.
Monday, April 20, 2009
pull your titties out and dance for me
raise your hand if you had a good weekend. -raises hand-
nah but foreal, things been aight I guess. disclaimer: besides spending nearly my entire Friday in the fucking ER at Dekalb Medical. womp. bruh, if any of yall come to Atlanta/East Dekalb, I advise you stay away from Dekalb Medical. I'm not going to go into full details, cause I don't fuck with all yall like that. the people that cared to know or who I cared to tell know.
moving on, happy 4/20 and shit dawg. shit, I wanna buy a seven of the purp and dutch or grape rello and blaze high as the sky. only problem is, apparently the muscles around my lungs and ribs are inflamed. it pretty much hurts to breathe. I dare not inhale smoke, but I will. =/
"so when you die, you might as well be high.
its in heaven or hell. or is it all a lie?
that's why I smoke purple on monday, purple on tuesday.
two glocks cocked so they don't bruise me.
smoking on purple ease my mind, this the shit that we get high to."
shouts to my baby Josh, my BFF Rob and all his niggas mayne, Rina, Irma and Te.
shouts to the family. Lauren, Dee Dee, Bre, Shamika, Tomika, Mel-Mel, P-Roc, Shells, all yall.
I want sex. and I'm a thug now.
nah but foreal, things been aight I guess. disclaimer: besides spending nearly my entire Friday in the fucking ER at Dekalb Medical. womp. bruh, if any of yall come to Atlanta/East Dekalb, I advise you stay away from Dekalb Medical. I'm not going to go into full details, cause I don't fuck with all yall like that. the people that cared to know or who I cared to tell know.
moving on, happy 4/20 and shit dawg. shit, I wanna buy a seven of the purp and dutch or grape rello and blaze high as the sky. only problem is, apparently the muscles around my lungs and ribs are inflamed. it pretty much hurts to breathe. I dare not inhale smoke, but I will. =/
its in heaven or hell. or is it all a lie?
that's why I smoke purple on monday, purple on tuesday.
two glocks cocked so they don't bruise me.
smoking on purple ease my mind, this the shit that we get high to."
shouts to my baby Josh, my BFF Rob and all his niggas mayne, Rina, Irma and Te.
shouts to the family. Lauren, Dee Dee, Bre, Shamika, Tomika, Mel-Mel, P-Roc, Shells, all yall.
I want sex. and I'm a thug now.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
five two
no one should ever make you question what kind of person you are.
easy said. easy to do. unless of course its done by someone you care about. makes me question like, why even decide to care about others? should you do it out of common courtesy? why, when they're only gonna hurt you.
people only pretend to care about you. they pretend, so you'll trust them, and once you trust them they'll take what they want and leave. like a spoiled fucking child who always wants, wants, wants. you can say yes to all of the above, and the first time you say no, they treat you as though you've never said yes to their ass. ungrateful little assholes.
no one likes to be taken for granted.
I took a step back and evaluated my life and those around me now. the list of people I hate is far greater than those I love or that I care about. honestly I don't think its such a bad thing, to someone else it might be outrageous. and you know what, as I now sit and think about it more and more, the people I hate, I'm starting to hate them more and more. and I know you're not supposed to hate people or whatever, but I truly hate a lot people.
anyway, I had a talk this weekend. the topic was friends. I honestly don't think I need any friends. I never ask anyone for anything anyway. someone told me that everyone needs friends. no matter how hard you try to play tough, everyone needs a friend. then I got sad because it was true. there's nothing like having someone to share laughs with and share your secrets with. but shit, copy and paste my third paragraph here. friends aint shit, cause people aint shit. Dommie-O says fuckem.
my friends are the ones that know of my conditions, and are gonna be there when I have my procedures. my friends are ones that know my daughter and have a relationship with her. my real friends are the ones I take to family functions and have a relationship with my family. I bet that doesn't sound like you, huh?
you know, if your someone's friend, wouldn't you take a bullet for them, right? I'd scrap, fight and lose, and take a bullet for my friends. which one of you would do that for me? =/ don't all answer at once.
I don't even know if this blog makes any sense or if I'm just rambling about a bunch of nothing. I don't know, but I'm having one of those days where I don't wanna talk to anyone and I just wanna be alone.
all I wanna see is my babygirl when I get off work, and see that lights work when I get home. that is all.
---
anyway, I talked to my grandma today. she wants me to go back to college. I promised her I would. I promised her I'd have a ranch with horses. I gotta make that happen.
man, when I feel like I have no one, my family always comes through. I know I'm not the nicest person, I'm the most respectful person, but I'll do anything for my family. we collide terribly, time and time again, but those are my niggas.
"if you love your nigga, hug your nigga."
I met up with Mary for lunch today. I miss her face. she's getting ready to move back out to California. her talking about it made me realize that I'm actually gonna miss her and miss our fights. I'm gonna miss her getting on my nerves. I'm gonna miss everything. as much as we fight and say fucked up shit to each other, I love her. honestly, I do.
with her leaving, and my relationship being the way it is, my move to Kentucky in little over a year shouldn't be hard for me. I'll be leaving my family behind, but I'll be near new family and my new BFF Wild Child <3.
ididntspellcheck.
easy said. easy to do. unless of course its done by someone you care about. makes me question like, why even decide to care about others? should you do it out of common courtesy? why, when they're only gonna hurt you.
people only pretend to care about you. they pretend, so you'll trust them, and once you trust them they'll take what they want and leave. like a spoiled fucking child who always wants, wants, wants. you can say yes to all of the above, and the first time you say no, they treat you as though you've never said yes to their ass. ungrateful little assholes.
no one likes to be taken for granted.
I took a step back and evaluated my life and those around me now. the list of people I hate is far greater than those I love or that I care about. honestly I don't think its such a bad thing, to someone else it might be outrageous. and you know what, as I now sit and think about it more and more, the people I hate, I'm starting to hate them more and more. and I know you're not supposed to hate people or whatever, but I truly hate a lot people.
anyway, I had a talk this weekend. the topic was friends. I honestly don't think I need any friends. I never ask anyone for anything anyway. someone told me that everyone needs friends. no matter how hard you try to play tough, everyone needs a friend. then I got sad because it was true. there's nothing like having someone to share laughs with and share your secrets with. but shit, copy and paste my third paragraph here. friends aint shit, cause people aint shit. Dommie-O says fuckem.
my friends are the ones that know of my conditions, and are gonna be there when I have my procedures. my friends are ones that know my daughter and have a relationship with her. my real friends are the ones I take to family functions and have a relationship with my family. I bet that doesn't sound like you, huh?
you know, if your someone's friend, wouldn't you take a bullet for them, right? I'd scrap, fight and lose, and take a bullet for my friends. which one of you would do that for me? =/ don't all answer at once.
I don't even know if this blog makes any sense or if I'm just rambling about a bunch of nothing. I don't know, but I'm having one of those days where I don't wanna talk to anyone and I just wanna be alone.
all I wanna see is my babygirl when I get off work, and see that lights work when I get home. that is all.
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anyway, I talked to my grandma today. she wants me to go back to college. I promised her I would. I promised her I'd have a ranch with horses. I gotta make that happen.
man, when I feel like I have no one, my family always comes through. I know I'm not the nicest person, I'm the most respectful person, but I'll do anything for my family. we collide terribly, time and time again, but those are my niggas.
"if you love your nigga, hug your nigga."
I met up with Mary for lunch today. I miss her face. she's getting ready to move back out to California. her talking about it made me realize that I'm actually gonna miss her and miss our fights. I'm gonna miss her getting on my nerves. I'm gonna miss everything. as much as we fight and say fucked up shit to each other, I love her. honestly, I do.
with her leaving, and my relationship being the way it is, my move to Kentucky in little over a year shouldn't be hard for me. I'll be leaving my family behind, but I'll be near new family and my new BFF Wild Child <3.
ididntspellcheck.
Monday, April 13, 2009
this is probably going to gross you out, but oh well
this is how I know Prada loves me.
right now, this every second, I am taking a HUGE dump. -smiles real big- and Prada comes in the bathroom with me. he is currently laying on the rug looking at me. he's such a good boy, following me around the house, making sure I'm safe. even while I'm taking a stinky poo. <3
hehe.
right now, this every second, I am taking a HUGE dump. -smiles real big- and Prada comes in the bathroom with me. he is currently laying on the rug looking at me. he's such a good boy, following me around the house, making sure I'm safe. even while I'm taking a stinky poo. <3
hehe.
mother fucker
so like, it was raining this morning. I figured it was noting more than just a thunder storm or some shit. wrong. around 9 am ish, I hear this weird noise outside. its the goddamn trees swaying from side to side. the wind velocity is crazy. anyway, 9:30 am ish and the power goes out. =/
weird shit always goes on in Downtown Decatur, and usually no where else. so I figure if the lights aren't back on my 12 pm, I'll go to my grandparents. I'm figuring that they'll have power. so from 9:30 to 12 I lay down and take a nap.
on the drive over to my grandparents, I'm noticing that everyone's lights are off and there are no traffic lights working. fucking wonderful. not to mention a tree on every corner that has trampled over powerlines and such.
I make it to my grandparents, and I'm able to charge my phone and lap top.
apparently there was an "unexpected" tornado that touched down in Dekalb County, which happens to be the county I live in, duh. 220,000 people in the Metro Atlanta area are currently without power. thank God for my taste in smart phones; I can still communicate with those outside my state.
anyway, in other news. the Trio is on point. the memebers include, Irma, myself, and Rob. whenever we have time, we do threeways calls and when we don't we're constantly texting each other. <3
the past weekend was nice. although I've been anti-social towards everyone besides the Trio and my love Josh, it was alright.
my entire family went to my grandparent's lake house. usually, I'm pumped to go cause I like camping and all, but not this time. I wasn't really feeling it I suppose.
Josh and I spend our weekend together of course. well more like he spent his with his mistress, also known as Madden. =/ lol, just kidding baby. our weekend was great though, we spent countless hours on the phone talking about real shit.
I love Josh, for so many reasons. I can always learn something from him within any situation I'm in. he knows so much about everything, and always says the right things at the right time. its like I don't even have to hold back on telling him anything, because I know and trust that he won't judge me on anything.
I'm really timid when it comes to people. like, I can talk to anyone and be friendly, but there has to be that special connection that triggers that makes me want to know you. I can honestly say there aren't many people who really know me or understand the way my mind ticks, but Josh forsure is one of those people. I appreciate it, and I appreciate him so much. I'm so grateful, so thankful to have someone like him.
we're going to take over the world together, lol. I wanna do it one side of the equator at a time, starting with the southern half, and form the world's largest militia. LOL! he wants to do it one time zone at a time. "tick tock, tick tock" DEAD! we both agree the Chinese will be the toughest to conquer. I shall be the successor though. join my army. <3
"holla if you have me, fuck you if you had me."
I'm out tho shawtyyy.
weird shit always goes on in Downtown Decatur, and usually no where else. so I figure if the lights aren't back on my 12 pm, I'll go to my grandparents. I'm figuring that they'll have power. so from 9:30 to 12 I lay down and take a nap.
on the drive over to my grandparents, I'm noticing that everyone's lights are off and there are no traffic lights working. fucking wonderful. not to mention a tree on every corner that has trampled over powerlines and such.
I make it to my grandparents, and I'm able to charge my phone and lap top.
apparently there was an "unexpected" tornado that touched down in Dekalb County, which happens to be the county I live in, duh. 220,000 people in the Metro Atlanta area are currently without power. thank God for my taste in smart phones; I can still communicate with those outside my state.
anyway, in other news. the Trio is on point. the memebers include, Irma, myself, and Rob. whenever we have time, we do threeways calls and when we don't we're constantly texting each other. <3
the past weekend was nice. although I've been anti-social towards everyone besides the Trio and my love Josh, it was alright.
my entire family went to my grandparent's lake house. usually, I'm pumped to go cause I like camping and all, but not this time. I wasn't really feeling it I suppose.
Josh and I spend our weekend together of course. well more like he spent his with his mistress, also known as Madden. =/ lol, just kidding baby. our weekend was great though, we spent countless hours on the phone talking about real shit.
I love Josh, for so many reasons. I can always learn something from him within any situation I'm in. he knows so much about everything, and always says the right things at the right time. its like I don't even have to hold back on telling him anything, because I know and trust that he won't judge me on anything.
I'm really timid when it comes to people. like, I can talk to anyone and be friendly, but there has to be that special connection that triggers that makes me want to know you. I can honestly say there aren't many people who really know me or understand the way my mind ticks, but Josh forsure is one of those people. I appreciate it, and I appreciate him so much. I'm so grateful, so thankful to have someone like him.
we're going to take over the world together, lol. I wanna do it one side of the equator at a time, starting with the southern half, and form the world's largest militia. LOL! he wants to do it one time zone at a time. "tick tock, tick tock" DEAD! we both agree the Chinese will be the toughest to conquer. I shall be the successor though. join my army. <3
"holla if you have me, fuck you if you had me."
I'm out tho shawtyyy.
Saturday, April 04, 2009
burr!
Sharina wants me to post a new blog, so here goes. don't even feel special either bitch, cause you're not. ^_^
i had actually had another blog that is still in draft mode and all that good shit, but i suppose this will do now or whatever and shit. i'll save that for another day and shit.
but yeah man, what it dewwww. aint shit really changed. you know how shit is tho. eat, sleep, work; same shit different day.
man, crushspot. i guess i'll say my piece on that piece of shit ass shit. really, i only log on to talk shit with Telly, Rob, Irma, Shala, and Josh when he decides to log on which is like what, once every two weeks and shit. anyway, lemme start with this : WHO THE FUCK GHOST HITTIN MY SHIT? bruh, and i aint even talking about 1, 2, 3 or 4 times. bruh i'm talking about like 20+ times. a bitch will log in and have like 20+ new hits and shit, when i view my "visitor's log" its the same mother fucker who viewed my shit like 12 hours ago and shit. Telly goin through the same fuck shit too. i aint trippin tho, someone must like our pics or some shit. hollerrrr at a bad bitch!
*speaking of which, shout outs to the new homies and shit. Rob, my fuckin head honcho and shit. my nigga fa lyfeeeeee. Irma, my ride or die/main bitch and Shala my bad bitch fa lyfeeeeee. we bad bitches united and shit. on yeah, me and Narada are speaking again. BIMMMM! he is like one of the funniest niggas ever, funny as hayullllll. i see your goonies picture and shit shawty, rofl. GUCCI!
in other news, i have a seven day break from work. -does the cabbage patch- i don't even know what i'm even gonna do with my spare time. probably lay in bed all day or do some shopping. =]
my cousin's memorial is that Easter Sunday. i haven't made up my mind if i'm going or not. i kinda wanna go cause i don't really spend that much time with my dad's side of the family, but IDK yet. shits crazy.
but yeah.
Sunday is Glenwood Day shaw! shit is goin down! yeah man! you know, since i do live down the street from Glenwood Rd. and shit, you know i gotta represent for my hood. EAST ATLANTA ZONE 6! but um, skurrr! its suppose to rain and shit Sunday, like thunder storms and shit. so that shit probably gonna be cancelled and shit tho. too bad, cause me and my best nigga aka bust it baybee Telly was gonna ride through that thang one time and look cute and shit. eh, i haven't talked to Josh about it or got him to sign my permission slip, cause its gonna rain and whatnot. bitches like me, skurred of rain and shit. fuck natural hair! >=[ if my shit get wet, i'm gonna be lookin like a straight puerto reffa. so, for tomorrow FML.
next! uhh, last week was cool. i uh, spent like 2 days and shit over at my grandparent's and shit. shout outs to Mama 2 and Daddy 2. last week, Telly got out of class early, and we went to my shoe place and to the mall for miscellaneous shit. <3333 man i love my bestie. i dunno about you nigga, but my best friend is the shit. the end. by the way, my boo's birthday is APRIL 10th and shit. the same day as PJ's =/ rofl @ Telly. that was an insider by the way. but yeah, we hittin up some spots and what not. we gon be lookin good as shit, you know. lookin good, smelling good, walkin like models in our 4" and 5" heels and shit. owww! since Trey Songz is single <3 i'm gonna help her find him so she can hunch him alllll night long. hollerrrrr at a badddd bitchhhh!
my baby daddy randomly popped up at the crib today. like double-u tee eff man. fuck that nigga tho, real shit. i had been ignoring his phone calls for like a week or so. he wanna act like he's all into his daughter and shit when he came over. like, oops nigga please! he doesn't even take care of his daughter, all he does is see her. i hate that nigga, he gets no fuckin respect from me. Josh was basically on the phone with me while he was there. he said that i'm really disrespectful :">. thanks baby. anyway, that bitch Laurel talking about "i'm filing for child support Monday so i can see her more." BIG LOL, i lol'ed in that niggas face. he must be an idiot. there is not nam court in the state of Georgia that will give him for visitation than he's already getting. i mean, goddamn, he can see Taylor whenever he wanna see her. thing is, he only wanna see her when its convenient for him. pssh, nigger please. he can kiss my ass with that shit. check this tho, the funnier part is that he wants to file for HIM to pay me child support. read that part again. he's going to file for HIM to PAY ME. ROFL! he must be fucking insane. he can't even pay for Tay's fees at her school on time. me being me, if he don't pay me the money for Tay on time, i'll go to court on that ass <3.
man, i miss my baby Josh so much. just me sitting here, texting this shit out via sidekick lx reminds me that i'm not on the phone with him. i swear i have the most amazing boyfriend ever <3. i aint lying.
the weekends and in the mornings during the week are the best. man we go to sleep together, wake up to each other, all that good shit. i swear man, i hardly know what to do with myself when he isn't around. that's my baby man, real shit. i'm still a G tho. right? right. of course, you know, we've been spending all of our time together. every day this thing called love gets better and better. he's always there for me and listens to me even when i don't be talking about shit. =/ and man, foreal sometimes i don't be talking about shit. i'm always there for him too. i gotta cheer my baby up, you know. as long as he's happy, i'm good. lol, and since we both going off that theory, we gon be good foreverrrrr.
"your eyes like mine. your nose like mine. you walk and talk like me. that's why you the one."
i can't wait til August. and when August past, i'll be dying for December to come. lol, foreal tho. he's my life, and right now i'm lovin my life. i love you baby. kiss me through the phoneeee <3.
but I'm gone. I gotta call my baby. sorry for the spelling mistakes and shit. fuck a spell check and shit.
i had actually had another blog that is still in draft mode and all that good shit, but i suppose this will do now or whatever and shit. i'll save that for another day and shit.
but yeah man, what it dewwww. aint shit really changed. you know how shit is tho. eat, sleep, work; same shit different day.
man, crushspot. i guess i'll say my piece on that piece of shit ass shit. really, i only log on to talk shit with Telly, Rob, Irma, Shala, and Josh when he decides to log on which is like what, once every two weeks and shit. anyway, lemme start with this : WHO THE FUCK GHOST HITTIN MY SHIT? bruh, and i aint even talking about 1, 2, 3 or 4 times. bruh i'm talking about like 20+ times. a bitch will log in and have like 20+ new hits and shit, when i view my "visitor's log" its the same mother fucker who viewed my shit like 12 hours ago and shit. Telly goin through the same fuck shit too. i aint trippin tho, someone must like our pics or some shit. hollerrrr at a bad bitch!
*speaking of which, shout outs to the new homies and shit. Rob, my fuckin head honcho and shit. my nigga fa lyfeeeeee. Irma, my ride or die/main bitch and Shala my bad bitch fa lyfeeeeee. we bad bitches united and shit. on yeah, me and Narada are speaking again. BIMMMM! he is like one of the funniest niggas ever, funny as hayullllll. i see your goonies picture and shit shawty, rofl. GUCCI!
in other news, i have a seven day break from work. -does the cabbage patch- i don't even know what i'm even gonna do with my spare time. probably lay in bed all day or do some shopping. =]
my cousin's memorial is that Easter Sunday. i haven't made up my mind if i'm going or not. i kinda wanna go cause i don't really spend that much time with my dad's side of the family, but IDK yet. shits crazy.
but yeah.
Sunday is Glenwood Day shaw! shit is goin down! yeah man! you know, since i do live down the street from Glenwood Rd. and shit, you know i gotta represent for my hood. EAST ATLANTA ZONE 6! but um, skurrr! its suppose to rain and shit Sunday, like thunder storms and shit. so that shit probably gonna be cancelled and shit tho. too bad, cause me and my best nigga aka bust it baybee Telly was gonna ride through that thang one time and look cute and shit. eh, i haven't talked to Josh about it or got him to sign my permission slip, cause its gonna rain and whatnot. bitches like me, skurred of rain and shit. fuck natural hair! >=[ if my shit get wet, i'm gonna be lookin like a straight puerto reffa. so, for tomorrow FML.
next! uhh, last week was cool. i uh, spent like 2 days and shit over at my grandparent's and shit. shout outs to Mama 2 and Daddy 2. last week, Telly got out of class early, and we went to my shoe place and to the mall for miscellaneous shit. <3333 man i love my bestie. i dunno about you nigga, but my best friend is the shit. the end. by the way, my boo's birthday is APRIL 10th and shit. the same day as PJ's =/ rofl @ Telly. that was an insider by the way. but yeah, we hittin up some spots and what not. we gon be lookin good as shit, you know. lookin good, smelling good, walkin like models in our 4" and 5" heels and shit. owww! since Trey Songz is single <3 i'm gonna help her find him so she can hunch him alllll night long. hollerrrrr at a badddd bitchhhh!
my baby daddy randomly popped up at the crib today. like double-u tee eff man. fuck that nigga tho, real shit. i had been ignoring his phone calls for like a week or so. he wanna act like he's all into his daughter and shit when he came over. like, oops nigga please! he doesn't even take care of his daughter, all he does is see her. i hate that nigga, he gets no fuckin respect from me. Josh was basically on the phone with me while he was there. he said that i'm really disrespectful :">. thanks baby. anyway, that bitch Laurel talking about "i'm filing for child support Monday so i can see her more." BIG LOL, i lol'ed in that niggas face. he must be an idiot. there is not nam court in the state of Georgia that will give him for visitation than he's already getting. i mean, goddamn, he can see Taylor whenever he wanna see her. thing is, he only wanna see her when its convenient for him. pssh, nigger please. he can kiss my ass with that shit. check this tho, the funnier part is that he wants to file for HIM to pay me child support. read that part again. he's going to file for HIM to PAY ME. ROFL! he must be fucking insane. he can't even pay for Tay's fees at her school on time. me being me, if he don't pay me the money for Tay on time, i'll go to court on that ass <3.
man, i miss my baby Josh so much. just me sitting here, texting this shit out via sidekick lx reminds me that i'm not on the phone with him. i swear i have the most amazing boyfriend ever <3. i aint lying.
the weekends and in the mornings during the week are the best. man we go to sleep together, wake up to each other, all that good shit. i swear man, i hardly know what to do with myself when he isn't around. that's my baby man, real shit. i'm still a G tho. right? right. of course, you know, we've been spending all of our time together. every day this thing called love gets better and better. he's always there for me and listens to me even when i don't be talking about shit. =/ and man, foreal sometimes i don't be talking about shit. i'm always there for him too. i gotta cheer my baby up, you know. as long as he's happy, i'm good. lol, and since we both going off that theory, we gon be good foreverrrrr.
"your eyes like mine. your nose like mine. you walk and talk like me. that's why you the one."
i can't wait til August. and when August past, i'll be dying for December to come. lol, foreal tho. he's my life, and right now i'm lovin my life. i love you baby. kiss me through the phoneeee <3.
but I'm gone. I gotta call my baby. sorry for the spelling mistakes and shit. fuck a spell check and shit.
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