i'm sure most of you know that Josh made a blog about me. don't lie and say you didn't, cause yall comment his stuff. so, i'm basically going to hit yall again with more mush. and being as i'm the female version of my baby, it's going to be all lovey dovey. yeah, and all that jazz.
but yeah. man, to be honest i don't even really know where to start. i'll start by saying that i love him in every way that a woman can love a man. the past 5 months that i've known him have been the most amazing 5 months with anyone. probably even the most amazing 5 months of my life.
and it's crazy really. i mean, i've probably said this a million times and in tons and tons of different ways, but it's like we're perfect for one another. oddly, strangely, and utterly perfect for one another. it's like, have you ever connected with someone truly on every level possible? i've never done that til now. LOL, i feel like one of those people in the Match.com or eHarmony commercials or some shit. as corny as that sounds, that's exactly what it's like. it's like we're the same person. a lot of people are always like, "i want someone who is just like me, who i can be myself around." man, i've found that person. everything i've ever wanted in a man, in a relationship, everything i've dreamed about, i find inside him.
i don't think i've never been in love in til now. like honestly. i talked to my mom recently about what it is to be in love with someone. she told me, "when you're in love with someone, when you really love them, you'll love them forever. love isn't something where if you fight with your boyfriend, it'll all go away. if you really love that person, you can forgive them for anything. when you love someone they stick with you in your heart forever." hypothetically speaking, i don't think i could ever let Josh go. actually i know i could never let him go. i'd never hold anything against him, and whatever obstacles we'll ever cross i know we can get through them together. and i say "hypothetically speaking" because we've never fought about anything.
speaking of which, i can always count on Josh for any and everything. we've been through so much together; it seems like we've gone to the end of the earth and back. but man, just like real niggas we get through shit together. when i'm sad, he seems to be the only one that can make me feel better and calm my rage.
now that i think about it, not only do i love him, but i need him.
i've never really needed anyone for anything, but he's different. he's the love of my life. and since he's been apart of my life, i can not be without him. i can't imagine not waking up in the morning at 5 am calling him just to fall asleep again lol. i can't imagine not sleeping with him on the phone at night. i can't imagine not texting him and spending my entire day with him. i've never wanted to spend all my time with someone, the way i want to spend all my time with him.
which ultimately leads to this. AUGUSTTTTTTTTTTT! when i see him son, i'm gonna run, jump, and kiss all over him forever and ever and ever. amen. LOL, seriously though.
i've made some pretty steep plans with this man. like stuff people who are in relationships for some years do. a lot of people think we're crazy for "moving too fast" or whatever, but you only have one life. i know who i want to spend the rest of my life with. i know who makes me uncontrollably happy. i know i may not know everything there is to know about the world, but i know that with Josh i am the happiest i'll ever be.
just in case yall think this is a story book fairy tale, lemme show you a lil something.
*i treat him like a KING.
but yeah, i'm out though. baby has been patiently waiting for me and this. i love you Josh, more than anything in the entire world. i'm so glad that i'm the one you call your woman. being with you makes me the happiest woman on earth.
