yesterday was my little cousin's birthday, he just turned one. it was the cutest thing ever, I swear. my cousin wanted everyone to wear a sports jersey, and everyone had one. Braylon had on an entire Jordan outfit and got his first hair cut. he was as cute as button. I didn't wear anything that I had planned to wear, instead I went out and got two new jerseys for me and Taylor. I bought a Hawk's jersey and I got her a Pacer's jersey. we all had BBQ, which I have been craving for the longest. omg, you have no idea. I think I was the only nigga excited about the food, lol.

Breanna told me next weekend she wants to go out with me again, since her and Deanna will be officially in Atlanta for summer break from school. I told her that's cool. I really miss my cousins and shit even though we tend to get together and fight. lol, I still love them the very same. I really missed Lauren though, cause she hardly came home at all. but she's here now, and man she's the funniest person, I swear. me and Natalie will be out the very same day for summer break, being as we both are on the same school calendar. she's so quiet, but will laugh at just about anything I say.

besides that, Saturday night turned to shit. actually my entire weekend, minus the party, was shitty. seeing everything and people's true colors can really, i don't know. there is no one that I can talk to about anything anymore. It sucks majorly, but it isn't something that I can't get over. everything always works itself out with or without anyone.

there has only been one person that I've relied on in my entire life. he's the only person that I've ever asked anything from, he's the very man that I thought loved me more than any other man, ever. my Dad. he hurt my feelings more than anyone could've ever hurt my feelings. more than my Mom was able to hurt my feelings.

now, nothing else matters anymore.